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| 15-jan-2006 | new photos |
six packed albums with photos from sweden, lebanon and
turkey are finally uploaded
in the photo gallery.
album now playing: -
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| 19-dec-2006 | back in sweden |
i'm back in sweden. but not i örebro, i'm staying with mt friend fredrik 'farao'
atterfelt in stockholm and will return to my own bed tomorrow. after spending the last
16 nights in 11 different places it will be really nice.
thanx to all the wonderful people i've met. thanx for conversations, food,
prayer, laughter, music, hospitality and friendship. photos from the trip
will come soon.
album now playing: -
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| 28-nov-2006 | turkey and lebanon |
in a few days i'm off to turkey and lebanon for a little trip to learn
more about the world and write articles. so hopefully there will be some
nice photos up before the end of the year. peace in the middle east!
album now playing: cdoass - extra fingers
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| 28-nov-2006 | poetiskt
eller
patetiskt? |
nedan följer några rader ur ett mejl jag skickade för några dagar sen. snabbt
nedklottrat nattsuddarsvammel. lösryckta och något pretansiösa tankar. men,
om jag får säga det själv, nästan lite vackert. jag när tanken på mig själv
som lite av en poet.
ja, att vara bunden till sin kropp är en förbannelse. den bryts ned av tidens sakta nötande. den fängslar den fria tankens bana med sina geografiska begränsningar. den är i vägen för mötet mellan människor där vi sitter låsta i våra stolar. den äcklar oss, kväver oss och plågar oss med sin materiella konstitution.
men den är också en välsignelse. o vilken mardröm att flyktigt rusa omkring som ånga, att aldrig kunna somna i en trött och tung kropp. o vilken plåga att inte ha någon yttre gräns, spridd för vinden men ropandes efter sammanhållning, ett helt liv. o vilken smärta att aldrig bli berörd, att inte kunna möta någon annan hud mot hud, istället frenetiskt virvlande i identitsupplösningens tornado.
livet lever vi i våra kroppar. vi hör våra medmänniskors tankar, vi luktar på naturens växlingar, vi smakar på livets goda, vi känner våra älskades fysiska närvaro och vi ser hur världen samspelar. det är ofrånkomligt. även om vi är blinda och vi inte kan tillgodogöra oss det till fullo. även om det vi känner är sparkar i magen och det vi ser fyller oss med skräck. vår kroppslighet är ofrånkomlig. att försöka fly från den tjänar ingenting till, att plåga den eller att omforma den felar i längden syftet att bli fri från avskyn för sin egen person. frågan är: hur blir man vän med sin kropp? eller: hur älskar man sig själv?
album now playing: cdoass - extra fingers
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| 16-nov-2006 | sufjan |
det är en speciell kille den där sufjan stevens. konserten
på berns igår var väldigt bra. han har en sjuk, sjuk fantasi.
harmonier, mellansnack, låttitlar, scenkostym och allt annat är
väldigt säreget och fascinerande.
intervju med sufjan i DN
album now playing: sufjan stevens - illinoise
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| 30-oct-2006 | spread the love |
the best things in life are free. like hugs for example.
i don't carry a sign like the dude in that video. but i do give free hugs. so
hug me.
album now playing: regina spektor - begin to hope
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| 21-oct-2006 | oslo |
these words are typed from a man with a satisfied stomach. after
preparing a wonderful pizza with chicken, mushrooms, garlic marinated
asparagus, love, cr�me fra�che and chili sauce with peter and rebecca, my
wonderful hosts here in oslo, i now sit dazed in a couch while peter is
also messing around with his computer and rebecca is taking a nap.
yesterday we sat with a laptop computer each playing the
action packed game bloomin' garden and comparing scores. quality
time.
i'm having a really good time just chilling here. tonight i'm going
to subscene to watch blackstrap, sally suicide and
father of levi. unwed sailor was schedueled to play
but just today i saw that they had cancelled. i have no clue as to why. bummer.
album now playing: woven hand - mosaic
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| 19-oct-2006 | new photos |
a new album has been uploaded
in the photo gallery. the wild-viking-beard-photo
that has caused a havoc at my myspace profile
is one of the featured photos.
album now playing: woven hand - mosaic
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| 2-oct-2006 | - |
long ass time - no write. this is probably the longest time between
posts since i started this site back in february 2001. one thing that
has happend with my gallery (that has not been updated for long either)
is that i have updated it and given it a new look. since i had loads
of problems with spam (i do not understand how these people can be
such absolute idiots in littering the internet like they do) i shut
off the comment function. hopefully i will be able to open it up again
in the future.
as for my personal life i have no new great revelations or
gory details to reveal. which is exactly what i want at the moment.
to live quietly. together with my good firends samual and carin i rent
an old cottage half an hour drive from örebro. the place has no
plumbing or running water and only has one room. but we love it there.
just sitting around reading, talking and being disconnected from internet, maybe
even shutting off our mobile phones. we've only been there a coupple of
times since we got the place a month ago. but we hope it will continue
to be a place of rest, prayer and silence that we can flee too.
too you, all my dear readers, i extend my wishes of a good
life. love, healthy conflict, sothing healing, forgivness, reflection
and brave action. faithfulness, trust, revolution, sacrifice, beauty,
justice. and again love. may christ kingdome come.
album now playing: mew - mew and the glass-handed knites
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| 14-aug-2006 | new photos |
four new albums uploaded
in the photo gallery.
album now playing: cult of luna - somewhere along the highway
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| 20-jul-2006 | new photos |
the last album from my trip to the states is now uploaded
in the photo gallery. it's packed
with silly shots of me and manhattan and brooklyn action. new york baby!
album now playing: justin timberlake - justified
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| 19-jul-2006 | a new columnist |
today i was made aware that my compassionate and intelligent
friend karin cedersj� has become a colomnist for
dagen, a swedish
newspaper. so far she has contributed two columns that are
well worth a read, if you know swedish:
album now playing: imogen heap - speak for yourself
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| 15-jul-2006 | new photos |
two more albums from the trip are uploaded
in the photo gallery. only
one more to go.
album now playing: radiohead - hail to the thief
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| 14-jul-2006 | new photos |
another album from the trip is uploaded
in the photo gallery.
album now playing: mark lanegan - bubblegum
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| 06-jul-2006 | new photos |
the first album of several from my american trip is up
in the photo gallery.
album now playing: -
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| 19-jun-2006 | america |
i'm writing this from the basement of a beautiful (for the most part)
house out on the countryside of winsconsin. but it does have a photo of
the first lady of the house hugging the first man of this country.
she is the nicest woman and i have not tried to discuss with her
although i've let her know that i do not agree with most of us foreign
policy.
i've met so many nice ppl. in new york i stayed with dan shuman,
a very generous up-right base player and indie songwriter. i also met
some nice ppl when out and about.
in omaha, nebraska i stayed with liz and doug and we had an
amazing time. i wish i could have stayed longer. but they'll move
to europe soon. ;-)
now i'm in la crosse, winsconsin visiting courtney.
right now we are at her parents house in order to get
some supplies for the roadtrip and festival bonanza we're heading out for
in a coupple of days. courtney does not hold the same views as her mom
and we're having a great time just hanging out.
that was some short snippets. stay tuned for photos in a week or so.
album now playing: -
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| 12-jun-2006 | preach it brother |
bono
at a recent prayer breakfast in washington.
album now playing: justin timberlake - justified
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| 11-jun-2006 | new photos |
not one but two amazingly fantastic albums are waiting
for you to eye them in the photo gallery.
album now playing: -
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| 28-may-2006 | the birds are singing outside my window |
got back from a workout on the dancefloor two hours ago. now it's
4:30 am and i still havn't gone to bed. shame on me!
album now playing: imogen heap - speak for yourself
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| 21-may-2006 | lordi |
hard rock hallelujah!
album now playing: -
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| 18-may-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery is updated.
album now playing: -
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| 17-may-2006 | - |
it's been a long time. but here comes a new entry.
album now playing: depeche mode - playing the angel
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| 25-apr-2006 | hiphop tour manager diary 3 |
the tour is over for me. i am relieved. and today i played my first
proper round of disc golf. sweeeeeet.
album now playing: animal alpha - pheromones
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| 22-apr-2006 | hiphop tour manager diary 2 |
well. i thought i would write a little tour diary here,
but it hasn't happend. tonight the tour plays in linkoping
but i left the guys with mapquest directions and stayed home in �rebro
taking care of my fever. tomorrow is the last part of the tour i
am organizing and we're playing in stockholm, here
is a flyer with venue and time specs. do come out if you have the
oppurtunity to do so.
album now playing: animal alpha - pheromones
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| 18-apr-2006 | hiphop tour manager diary 1 |
well. i am on this tour. i boked it and now i'm sort of the tour manager,
driving the artists around, making sure they're fed and happy. the
first show was on tonight in halmstad and it was really good. i knew
it would be good, but i was blown away. really good stuff. we might
come to a place near you. COME OUT AND SEE US! we're gonna stop by in gothenburg,
oslo, �rebro, link�ping and maybe stockholm also. then they take
off up north in sweden. look here for more
info.
album now playing: -
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| 18-apr-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery is updated.
album now playing: -
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| 16-apr-2006 | hmpfrrr |
yearning. the noble parts and the not so noble parts.
deal with it. it is best not to push it away.
poor creature that will have to endure the scorching
heat of lava that has been built up under the surface of
abstinence and incompatibility.
i love it although i am hesitant to join the seemingly
orchestrated choir of capitulating reviewers.
but it sure is a fitting soundtrack for nights like this.
album now playing: khoma - the second wave
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| 11-apr-2006 | 4:06 am |
angst, procastrination, hiphop and pesticides. come month of may with
freedom and dead butterflies (see album now playing).
album now playing: blonde redhead - misery is a butterfly
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| 09-apr-2006 | inner vs outer beauty |
i understand that the swedish tabloid aftonbladet is not intressted in
objectivity. but these
carola quotes are so very contradictory they gotta have some
truth to them.
album now playing: prodigy - fat of the land
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| 08-apr-2006 | new photos |
a very broad mic of photos was just uploaded
in the photo gallery.
album now playing: khoma - the second wave
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| 04-apr-2006 | new photos |
wedding photos from my dear friends emma and martin ahlbäck
are finally uploaded in the photo gallery.
album now playing: khoma - the second wave
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| 24-mar-2006 | slight update |
i just updated my page with music links. with my last post in
mind i am glad to say i added female artists. the knife is one example.
a great example at that, they have spoken out on the gender inequality
in the music business.
album now playing: namur - songs from the valley of baca
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| 12-mar-2006 | male music |
seconds after posting the last entry i thought about how of all the
bands mentioned in the entry only one has female members. the music
industry gender inequality is something that is important to acknowledge
by all who strives for a world where people are not judged by their gender.
maybe i should also think about in what way
i support and promote artists that i know.
album now playing: closer - tokpela ep
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| 12-mar-2006 | fresh music |
some people are always on the hunt for fresh new music. restless
pursuit of a perfect melody, a groovylicous beat, of emotional euphoria.
when you meet them they always ask if you've heard something new worthy
to check out. i'm not like that. i like to checkout new music but it's
not in me to devote alot of time and energy to do so. maybe because
the occasions when you find truly great music are few.
yesterday it happend. i did something i never usually do.
i actully looked up one of the bands trying to add unknown people on
myspace.com,
a bastard of indie music showcase and show-me-your-cleavage-community
poorly designed and programmed but with millions of worldwide users.
maybe it was divine appointment. the band was closer and their myspace profile graced my late
night surfing with such great tunes that i was not able to go to bed until
6 am. there were other reasons for not getting to bed until sunrise, but closer
was defenitly a major one.
closer combine many of my favourite elements of music. the sound
is athmospheric yet raw. the vocals are emotional and powerful yet fragile.
they have a great sense for both melody and rythm. think the progressiveness
and mood of tool, rythms inspired by at the drive-in and jeff buckley on vocals.
it's not a very good description of this unsigned band, but the best i can offer from these
foggy valleys of amazement.
==
i also want to tell you about some friends with new albums
out now or with albums soon coming out.
- namur - songs from the valley of baca (out now, can be
bought cheaply direct from me from all over the world)
- lampshade - let's away (out now)
- khoma - the second wave (out on april 4th)
- cult of luna - somewhere along the highway (out on april 24th)
- silence the foe - shaking hallelujah (out on april 24th)
- silver - name yet to be revealed (out on may 8th)
- benea reach - name yet to be revealed (out on may 27th)
album now playing: closer - tokpela ep
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| 11-mar-2006 | all photos |
when i meet people they sometimes say how much they
enjoy looking at my online photo gallery. that makes me happy. i
like to share my photos with known and unknown friends. some of these
people never comment on the photos with the easy-to-use comment feature.
that makes me sad. well, not sad really. but i really appreciate it
when someone makes the effort to write a little comment, whatever it
might be, about a photo in the gallery.
so, make me happy and write a comment in my photo gallery
album now playing: -
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| 10-mar-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery is updated.
album now playing: lampshade - let's away
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| 3-mar-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery is updated.
album now playing: anna ternheim - somebody outside
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| 27-feb-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery is updated.
album now playing: -
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| 24-feb-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery is updated with captivating photos.
album now playing: bob marley - legend (best of)
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| 13-feb-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery holds a fresh album.
more freshness to be expected soon.
album now playing: -
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| 13-feb-2006 | colombia |
i came home from colombia yesterday. will probably tell more later.
album now playing: -
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| 28-jan-2006 | norway |
drove to oslo yesterday. nine hours later than planned. having done less then i
had planned to. it sucks. today i am going to a wedding for a friend and it should be pretty sweet.
album now playing: -
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| 21-jan-2006 | update |
i havn't been very active here after new years because i've had
alot to do. you probably can't expect a whole lot of updates in
another 40 days or so. still have lots to do.
album now playing: coldplay - x & y
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| 07-jan-2006 | emotionally unstable
or
emotionally healthy |
today i woke up at 1 pm. now it's 9 pm and i've done nothing productive really.
i've been sitting too much by the computer, i've been googling
for upcoming adventures and i've watched the movie a love song
for bobby long. mindblowing. the script, the photography and the acting
is all fantastic.
when the narrator of the movie reflects on bobby long he says
something about how bobby long wanted to live close to unseen people.
and i thought back on the occasion that made me write the 7-jan-2004
entry entitled beautiful girl. the movie and the remembrance of that
conversation made me cry. somehow movies with touching stories frees all kinds
of emotions inside of me. it is not that the movie creates touchy feelings
as much as i think what it does is opening up for my own emotions.
for more than an hour now my eyes has been shiny, although the violent
sobbing has ceased. i sit here and think about all the wonderful people
around me. i want to tell my friends and family that i love them. i do
it to rarely. i love you!
in the middle of all this i can't help but long for someone to
share this with. yeah, i have people that i confide in. yes, i know
that having a girlfriend does not eliminate loneliness. but i don't
wanna be lonesome on my own. if only i had someone to share
my loneliness with. if only i had someone to share the beauty and pain
of life with.
i need to take a shower, a friend is coming over any minute now.
good bye for now!
album now playing: sufjan stevens - illinois
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| 02-jan-2006 | new photos |
the photo gallery holds a fresh album.
album now playing: gwen stefani - love angel music baby
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| 29-dec-2005 | love |
quotes
on love (not romance) well worth a read.
album now playing: johnny cash - the man comes around
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| 29-dec-2005 | a gentle backrub |
i am very much pissed off right now. i've just seen the movie
hotel
rwanda which is a war drama based on the story of how the hutu
paul rusesabagina saved tutsi refuges at his hotel during the
massacre by the hutu militia back in 1994.
during the movie i cussed aload, cried, clenched my fists.
horrid, horrid, horrid. how can people do this? how can god,
who loves every single human being enormously, stand watching
all the shit that goes on here on planet earth?
the story has some simularities with schindler's list, but is in my
opinion better although not as epic as the holocast drama. as always
when overwhelmed by how evil has infested humanity it's
easy to become cynical, to be crippled by powerlessness
or try to find bliss in ignorance.
but come on people, we can all do our little part.
nobody can save the whole world. i can't, you can't,
paul rusesabagina can't, oscar shindler couldn't.
but we can all do something. and we all have the
responsibilty to do something. SO DO SOMETHING.
sponsor a kids education, pray for justice, buy
fairly traded and organicly produced, make
peace whether it's between nations or antagonists
at work. love is the only way forward. everything
else is regressing into the captivity of evil.
i am myself having a time of rest from the
kind of engagement that i've had before. i allow myself
to relax and have fun more so than before. relaxation
and humor is something we all need.
but i never want to forget. i never want to shut my eyes.
i never want to give into cynicism. i never want my
heart to become hard and cold. i want to be aware.
and i want to act on what i am aware of.
hey, you devil. i fucking hate you. i know
very well that i'm going your way at times. i know
that i sometimes consciously choose to do evil.
but i hate that. and again, i hate you.
album now playing: gary jules - mad world [from the donnie darko soundtrack]
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| 21-dec-2005 | new photos |
the photo gallery holds a fresh album.
album now playing: totalt j�vla m�rker - m�nniskans ringa v�rde
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| 15-dec-2005 | - |
i just happends. sometimes i get overwhelmed by god's love
for people. at times individuals, most often for all of humanity.
it is as if i stand by the shoreline of the ocean of god's
love. and wave upon wave comes crashing against me.
crushing my heart.
it is my life. god's love is my life. i mess up.
i can have a bad attitude. i'm easily distracted. but living
in the love of god, through the love of god, for the love of god.
that is my life.
my cheeks are burning from salty tears evaporating.
i have once again felt waves of love flow through my body.
the feelings are very strong. almost scarily strong.
as strong as i imagine
a parent feeling for his or her child. i hope to transform
these moments of emotion to a lifestyle of prayer and love.
i want love to be my motivation. i want to activly connect my love
to the one who is the source of all love.
album now playing: mewithoutyou - catch for us the foxes
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| 12-dec-2005 | guestbook |
for a few weeks now it has been inpossible to write in the guestbook.
will try to fix someday.
album now playing: rammstein - reise reise
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| 11-dec-2005 | sufjan |
sufjan stevens, what a guy. i'm listening to his latest cd illinois, the 2nd
in his quest to make an album on every american state. brilliant music and intresting
lyrics. just take a look at the titles:
1. Concerning The UFO Sighting Near Highland, Illinois
2. The Black Hawk War, Or, How To Demolish An Entire Civilization And Still Feel Good About Yourself In The Morning, Or, We Apologize For The Inconvenience But You're Gonna Have To Leave Now, Or, 'I Have Fought The Big Knives And Will Continue To Fight...
3. Come On! Feel The Illinoise!:
Part I: The World's Columbian Exposition
Part II: Carl Sandburg Visits Me In A Dream
4. John Wayne Gacy, Jr.
5. Jacksonville
6. A Short Reprise For Mary Todd, Who Went Insane, But For Very Good Reasons
7. Decatur, Or, Round Of Applause For Your Stepmother!
8. One Last 'Whoo-Hoo!' For The Pullman
9. Chicago
10. Casimir Pulaski Day
11. To The Workers Of The Rock River Valley Region, I Have An Idea Concerning Your Predicament
12. The Man Of Metropolis Steals Our Hearts
13. Prairie Fire That Wanders About
14. A Conjunction Of Drones Simulating The Way In Which Sufjan Stevens Has An Existential Crisis In The Great Godfrey Maze
15. The Predatory Wasp Of The Palisades Is Out To Get Us!
16. They Are Night Zombies!! They Are Neighbors!! They Have Come Back From The Dead!! Ahhhh!
17. Let's Hear That String Part Again, Because I Don't Think They Heard It All The Way Out In Bushnell
18. In This Temple As In The Hearts Of Man For Whom He Saved The Earth
19. The Seer's Tower
20. The Tallest Man, The Broadest Shoulders:
Part I: The Great Frontier
Part II: Come To Me Only With Playthings Now
21. Riffs And Variations On A Single Note For Jelly Roll, Earl Hines, Louis Armstrong, Baby Dodds, And The King Of Swing, To Name A Few
22. Out Of Egypt, Into The Great Laugh Of Mankind, And I Shake The Dirt From My Sandals As I Run
album now playing: sufjan stevens - illinois
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| 9-dec-2005 | more in swedish |
använd din demokratiska röst att påverka även mellan de
sockrade och söndrande valrörelserna.
hj�lp
thomas östros att packa inför sin resa till wto-mötet i hongkong!
album now playing: johnny cash - american IV (the man comes around)
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| 8-dec-2005 | ett försök | jag kallar versmåttet för carl lewis |
jag känner mig som en enda stor bakteriehärd
febrig och hostig
oduschad och doftandes mer än den franska parfymen från igår
jag har svårt att förstå den starka dragningskraften
datorn, ett svart hål
suger upp all tid och skingrar den utöver det världsvida nätet
tidsbesparing, effektivisering och smarta lösningar
åt helvete heller
mest av allt suger tekniken musten ur oss, anemisk homotech
bloggar, analyser, krönikor, essäer och myspacepresentationer
jag är en storkonsument
som hoppas på framtiden, på hur tiden ska framkalla storverk av ansamlat och bearbetat
men jag tror inte riktigt att jag ger tiden utrymme
upptagen med annat
att skapa bilder, ord, mat och ordning är decentraliserat i mitt medvetande
kataloger, taxikvitton, flourtuggummin
skrivbordet belamrat
kreditupplysning, festivaltema, inbjudningskort, recensionsexemplar
ja, imorrn ska det läsas och recenseras
gud. och djuren
som blir mina kläder och min mat
fast jag ska ju tänka på korparna
mätta och bekymmerslösa
och mindre värda. eller hur var det?
inga ord räcker till
predikaren
örat får aldrig nog av att höra
ensam nattmacka
närvaro
finns inget mewithoutyou
nattens vila
väntar
i himlens blick
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album now playing: mewithoutyou - catch for us the foxes
|
| 5-dec-2005 | movies |
i've watched two great movies the last days,
an unfinished life(really good)
and
the constant gardner(superb).
both are dramas, but not that suger sweet stuff. especially not the constant
gardner, a movie that is devastatingly cruel. not so much in what is depicted
as in that the story might not be all that unlikely.
thanx to erik, maria and calle that made me company to these fine movies.
thanx for shared meals and everyday miracles of warmth and friendship in the
depressing december of sweden.
album now playing: mew - mew and the glass-handed kites
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| 30-nov-2005 | new photos |
the photo gallery holds a fresh album.
album now playing: bob marley & the wailers - legend (best of)
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| 25-nov-2005 | debaser |
looking forward to tuesday. i'm gonna drive namur to their
show and help them with various things as well
as meet the guys in blindside again.
and of course, see both bands play.
album now playing: keane - hopes and feares
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| 25-nov-2005 | bullying |
i've written about people in the outskirts of society the last
couple of days. on my door i have a small card with the words
det finns flera miljarder människor på jorden
och ändå är många så ensamma (there are billions of people
on earth and yet many are so lonely) written on it. this was again
brought to my mind when i read a
letter from a devasted mom published in a newspaper (in swedish).
i only hope that my indignation and tears will produce something
more than intellectual understanding and touchy feelings. i know it does,
but isn't there more i can do? can i be more loving? can my eyes
communicate more warmth? but even more importantly; am i willing
to sacrifice time with my dear friends that already has alot of friends
in order to befriend ones without?
i know, i know. i can't do everything, see everyone and
love perfectly. but i don't want to relax comfortably in my cosy
cocoon when people are experiencing hell on earth around me.
god, make my heart more like yours. god, give me the stregth
to change what i can and accept that i can't change evertyhing.
also, it is very sobering to consider other peoples
tragic realities in my current state of selfpity.
album now playing: cult of luna - salvation
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| 24-nov-2005 | "forget it" |
i don't like how i write more about my misery than my blessedness
on my website. cause really, i am much more blessed than i am miserable.
with that said, i will whine some more.
i don't know how to relate to this new feeling. i will try not to nurture it,
am adviced not to. maybe i can just let it
be, hope for it to wither and die. or maybe i should strangle
it, break down and hopefully rise from the ashes.
i hope that my heart will continue to be soft
despite the disappointment.
and not only in this situation, but life in general.
i pray that in a world of confusion, hurt, cynicism and pure evil i will not harden
my heart. i pray that i will still hope, dream and love - your kingdom
come. that is why i have tattoed the words "guard your heart" and a shield
on my chest.
album now playing: blindside - the great depression
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| 24-nov-2005 | documentary |
i'm meant to write an article on the enviromental aspects of energy and
ways for consumers to contribute to a safer and more nature
friendly energy production. but my thoughts are spinning and
instead i've just watched a documentary about grunden bois,
a soccer club for physically and mentally handicapped. their
undisguised and genuine hapiness is sweet to the soul. but
i'm cautious to objectify them. they are not objects for either
fascination or insult, but real people.
album now playing: amen - death before musick
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| 24-nov-2005 | book |
i just finished johanna nilssons latest book, de i utkanten �lskande, in three
and a half hours. as with all her books it's impossible to put them down once you've
started reading. but although it's a very good book it doesn't reach the heights
of her two previous books, rebell med frusna f�tter and konsten att vara ela,
that i found quite fenomenal.
this book made me think
about what damien jurado said when i interviewed him for the swedish magazine trots allt recently (the interview will be
published in the first issue next year). he talked about the stories of the outsiders
and the importance of hearing them. his perspective was that of "untouchables" of middle
america. countryside loners, forgotten widows in forgotten towns, alienation. johanna,
on the other hand, exposes the alienation and loneliness of very different people
living in stockholm, the capital of sweden. different people, all longing for love,
all misunderstood, crossing eachother's paths.
when i interviewed damien he said that he did not know what
he wanted to communicate to the tragic narratives he sings about. i asked
him if he wanted to communicate hope to which he replied that he wanted
the stories he's delivering from the dark corners of america to
expose the human soul and it's condition. that the listeners inner beings, covered
by status, image and materialism, would surface their consciousness. that is what i feel de i utkanten �lskade
did to me. if it was johannas intention i do not know. maybe i should interview her?
album now playing: anna ternheim - somebody outside
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| 20-nov-2005 | reunion |
yesterday i went to a ten year reunion with my old h�gstadie class.
it was fun and wierd to meet everybody again. i was probably the one
who had changed most visually having become much taller and getting pierced
and tattooed. i was suprised to find that
almost everybody was living together with someone and several
had both one, two and three kids.
first we had a short time with only our class, then we met all the other classes
graduating from our school that year. food and alot of dancing.
man, i love dancing.
one of the people i hung out with most in school was paul who moved
away straight after graduation. we had only met once since then, two years after.
he stayed at my place last night and today we've been talking for hours. old memories,
new experiences, common intrests. it was nice.
album now playing: magnus carlson - ett kungarike f�r en kram
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| 12-nov-2005 | today |
today has been spent in the company of myself and my bad smell doing
pretty much nothing. at 6pm i shaved my head and beard, took a
shower and spent the evening
being undecisive on the amount and type of social interaction the night
should hold. made a few phonecalls, heard a few answering messages.
ended up having an egg sandwich with trusted neighbor larsa. we
watched fractions of two jackie chan movies. i went home and watched
a woody allen movie. witty
dialog, restless analysis and pretty funny bashing of california.
can't decide if i like this stuff i'm listening to or not. i don't
have to decide. i won't decide. i will go to bed. the bed that has
faithfully been my comfort for the last twenty years. a simple wooden
frame and a ten centimeter foam rubber matress.
good night world.
album now playing: cocorosie - noah's ark
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| 10-nov-2005 | new photos |
the photo gallery holds a fresh album.
album now playing: tomas andersson wij - tomas andersson wij
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| 8-nov-2005 | misc |
i'm a bit suprised by my strong reaction. but in a way it's nice.
man får bryta ihop och gå vidare.
i so love my house church. we eat, talk, pray, laugh,
encourage, challenge, comfort eachother/together. love you guys!
i professionally ride taxi these days. wierd.
album now playing: r�yksopp - melody a.m.
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| 7-nov-2005 | new photos |
it was ages ago. but now the photo gallery is once again updated
with a new album.
album now playing: sufjan stevens - illinoise
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| 7-nov-2005 | feedback |
i've got quite some response on the two messages i wrote two weeks ago. some
people say i'm stupid to write so honestly on the net. some people make jokes
in that loving way meant to extend comfort. some people have thanked me for
wearing my heart on the sleave and done so with such emphasis that i cannot
but think that it was worth it although i might not benefit from it in my venture
of finding someone or in coming across as a stable person.
album now playing: sixstarhotel - these rosewood theories
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| 6-nov-2005 | blessed |
i've spent the weekend attending the pilgrim autumn meeting at the retreat center
the bjärka-säby new castle. i've had a really good time although some things didn't
turn out as anticipated.
i left the meeting with a greater love for christ and his church. i came home
with a crucial decision made. i hope and believe it was made in accordance with the
will of god. i was undecisive pretty much all the way up until tonight when i had the talk with
the person representing the organisation asking for my response.
thank you to everybody i've met during the weekend. special thanks to diffet
for sharing the hotel room, the good and the bad times. thanks also to david for the car
ride prayer and oscar for your understanding and friendship.
i am blessed with amazing friends. i am blessed by being a part of the body
of christ. i am blessed with the love and salvation of christ.
album now playing: sigur ros - takk
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| 2-nov-2005 | - |
the mystery is revealed. my new tattoo can be seen on the start page of
longingboy.com.
album now playing: callisto - true nature unfolds
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| 2-nov-2005 | brickebacken |
i just came back from having an eldorado lemonade with diya and anneli.
softish.
album now playing: -
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| 2-nov-2005 | - |
some day last week was the day.
photo will come...
album now playing: -
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